Had it good but the fun is over

I had it good. Dan and I were great together. I was ready to spend my life with him. Unfortunately after six years of being together he was unsure if that's what he wanted. This was very difficult to go through. Thinking you are heading one way when really, you're not, and the worst part is you know it.  You know it's falling apart. You know the life that you thought would be at one time, is no longer. It sucks, straight up.
I'm usually alright, some days I have a bad day and that's all. Dan and I see eachother once and a while but I remember why I made the decision I did, so I'm garded and it's working. Today I feel I have hit a new level or a new part of the break up process. I'm starting to be ok with it. The idea of Dan dating isn't gut wrenching anymore, still hurts but lessened.
Some days it can be hard working for his family, like 10 minutes ago I am hearing his older brother and his girlfriend (who by the way have decided to move in together after only a year together, which made me sad but then again put my situation into perspective. 1 year together and they move forward. 6 years with Dan and nothing except moving the opposite way) plan Christmas with Marcelle. There are always firsts, this is the first year I won't be a part of their planning process. Yeah it makes me a bit sad, but it's par for the course.
I have my own life to look forward to. To stay focused on what I need and I'm excited about that. Today I was feeling a bit depressed, I felt like I had veered off my path and was just standing still and I wasn't liking it. But for whatever reason, I am focused again.
Smile always.