Writing helps stress

I have been told to write when I am stressed or feel blocked. So writing is what I will do. These days I am feeling torn in regards to my life. I have the greatest opportunity to be with on of the best people I know, who was brought up in the most wonderful family. but ever since he moved out I have kept myself busy with my own life and am starting to feel happy with this time for myself. I feel that I have room for personal growth and development but am afraid that if I decide to continue with this that we will fall and drift farther and farther away from each other. Why do we always have to face these life decisions that are so hard? I realize this won’t end  but I very much wish it could.